Love - Hate It With A Passion

Lying Once Violated & Exploited - LOVE....  That is the true meaning of this ugly word when it is used in the wrong context.  An emotion that is thrown around with people and by people who have no clue of its TRUE value.  Love should be only used and felt with family only, yes family.  Not friends or strangers that comes into your life and made you feel some what at home in your heart.  That's your weak nature now call these non-blood related individuals FAMILY.  Nah, hell no.  Now if you were born with the unsettling luck of destructive blood members of family - my deepest and sincere apology.  Not everyone is lucky to have a good member in their immediate family.  BUT! somewhere down the heritage line someone fits the bill of truly having a good heart.  Yet again I still must say, Fuck Love.  The loose term that is used today and in the past between men and women means absolutely SHIT!  Mothers', now there is where love lives.  True, Good Mothers who bore their children and stood by them and cared for them until their death.  That is Love.  That nonsense that is said between the opposite sex should be changed to - "Lets be in a Deal" with each other.  Not, "Lets Be In Love" with each other.  Bullshit!  The only real reason a stranger wants to be you is to keep themselves busy until the next journey in their life comes along.  They're Bored!  They need an activity to pass the time.  Once their true heart desire of an opportunity pops up, its adios to you, Thanks for letting me use and abuse your body, I'm out.  Besides being born into motherhood, where your heart is magically given up to your child, People true hearts desire is themselves.  And rightfully so.  Why Not!?  Friends and member of the opposite sex are foot soldiers of the devil.  The are set on earth to destroy good kindhearted people.  And those little weak bitches start early on in someones life.   Detest that coming of age, all ever present, adolescent puberty of becoming a man and/or women.  Its not all that jolly, fun, fun, joy, joy emotion that is pass down in stories from older folks who have went through it.  Its complete and utter bullshit.  Yeah, just find that random person that you been working on or working with, have the deed done and leave them.  There is no need to stick around and think all of sudden that you are in love because you are not; and so are they.  Its a business arrangement that needs to take place and once completed toss that human being to the side like a bag of garbage.  For that is what is going to be done to you if you don't move first.  And even if you don't, because you got caught up.  Oh well, life goes on.  Living is what you can do for yourself and your blood relatives that deserve you.  Others, who gives a fuck about them.  Cause I'm certain they do not give a fuck about you, at all.  Love - Lying Once Violated & Exploited, the true meaning of LOVE.  Hate it with a passion.  Always have and always will.  I was right in making sure all were kept at a distance.  But, I too, got caught up.  Too many at that and the shit transition to get back to reality was time consuming and exhausting.  I will never, ever, venture down that la di da road ever again.  Why the fuck for!?  For What!?  For a piece of dick.  Yeah right!  When I'm thirsty I will buy one (human being) and when done toss them to the side a piece of shit garbage that they are.  Goodnight!!  Love - Get the Fuck Outta Here with that Bullshit!!

Set Me Free, Please

It was so blue, royal blue, with a hint of green.  It was warm and inviting, surrounded by golden light brown sand that exfoliate your feet with every step. The sound that emanate from the ocean is so beautiful, so serene.  Its like music to your soul.  And every chance I get, I take myself to the ocean, and sit, and breathe, and listen for hours on water crashing into each other.  Forming a bond of music, a cohesion intended by God.  How lucky is the earth to witness such beauty. How lucky is the ocean to receive such a blessing from God.  That's Love.

Those four letters, huh, boy can they rock someone's world.  You can receive it from many different avenues.  A family, a friend, or a spouse.  If you are truly lucky you can received those four letters from all three.  What a blessing, right?  Because each of those blessing does provide something to the soul.  Right? Yeah, I guess.  Some are lucky to receive all three and some are just meant to have two of those.  And then, there are those who have just the one and then there's those who don't have none.  

Four letters - Love.  Those four letters can cut like a knife deep down into your soul.  Leaving you broken.  If those four letters were never made, a lot of souls would feel safe, feel ease, be free.  Every time I start to feel those four letters I cringe.  I cringe with such deep depression cause I know that that hold will last forever.   And as much as I try to distract my mind, nothing helps and I'm stuck.

Yeah, I got the family - they Love me.  I was blessed with a best friend - best 23 years of the beginning of my life.  But, as I get older, I know as my family begins to leave me for Heaven; I will be left alone.  And the memory of those four letters will be played like a memory over and over.  Just to remind me that I once had them, those four letters.  I once felt it, those four letters.  For I know in my heart, that I will not have the pleasure to continue receiving or feel those four letters.  For I will not have a spouse.  Nor a child. Letting me know that they Love me.  Sadness.  Such sadness that will fall upon me.  Disconnected from the warmth of those four letters, physically.   I wonder how will I survive mentally and physically as I feel my heart slowly dies.  I wonder how will I survive the pain of not being wanted after my family has left me.  Will I survive?  Will the memory and their spirits help me to live on?  How will I survive?  Cause I know in my future I see my heart dying.  My spirit dying.  My smile fading.  And the sadness creeping in to take over.  How will I survive.... 

Set Me Free, Please; four letters.  Set Me Free, Please from the sadness that one feels when the four letters stop coming.  Set Me Free, Please four letters to live freely.  Allow me the opportunity to feel peace in my heart for once before I die.  Allow me the chance of making me happy by my Love.  Please.

Pretentious Little Bitch!!!!

If there is anything that I cannot stand, cannot support, or respect, is a Pretentious Little Bitch!!  

I mean really, come on, who the fuck died and made the be all-all knowing Allah, God, Jesus, Christ, Yahweh, the Messiah..  Last I checked in my reading - The Bible he came many moons ago, and again after that.  If you are the Chosen One, why the fuck are you living on earth with the rest of us.  If you got your shit together and can not do no wrong why are you learning skills like the rest of us lay men and women.  You stupid bitch.  You need to relax your ways and realize that this world works well when others pretend to play nice with others.  Learn your place creamy bitch and stand down.  Just because your family comes from money that was earned by the government of the people does not make you the cream of the crop because of your skin color.  

Now don't get me wrong.  By all means I am not racist, ignorant nor narrow-minded like the few that wears my skin color.  I do know how to differentiate the ignorance from the genuine and you my dear - represent true ignorance.  I know, I know, your dad was a Chief Master Sergeant of the Air Force, and therefore you earned the right to wear his rank.  Yup, I get it.   You've earned that through basic training, technical school, and twenty years of dealing with political bullshit by stepping on others' talents, education, and dreams to get you to where you are.   Oh wait, where your father has reached; not you, pretentious bitch. 

Unlike you, I have served my country and attended all the military training that was given to succeed in being a soldier.  And oh yeah, I completed have of your father's career, and dealt with the political bullshit.  While you missy, just reaped the benefits you spoiled pretentious bitch.  You don't own your own home, you live with mommy and daddy.  You don't work to pay bills, daddy pays them.  You don't worry about car note, groceries, and the many numerous bills that others - real adults deal with daily.  Mommy and Daddy does that for you.  Enjoy it pretentious bitch, enjoy.  Cause in retrospect I was once you - taken cared of.   But I have ten years under my belt to tell you and the rest of the world - Kiss My Ass.  You or anybody else will not get in my way of getting my dream.  Underline the word "getting" bitch.  Cause I'm not just achieving it, I'm getting it.  I've come too far to let some pretentious little bitch like you stop my process.  I've dealt with your kind all my life and I used to be mean with bitches like you.  Took a chill pill and let you bitches win thinking my time will come.  Well, guess what pretentious little bitch that time is now.  Watch your back little girl cause I'm gonna stab it, stab it repeatedly like you creamy bitches do and smile as I'm doing it.  I guess I can say I did learn something from you creamy bitches - the art of deceit with a smile.  But, the one thing you don't know is I will bring my street smarts in every situation and will enjoy the set up to crush you hard Hun.

Enjoy this victory now you creamy bitches.  Cause I will prevail.  Just like my boss has - Forward!

ninaravensimone ;o)

Humiliation....

As of now the author has been keeping it light and sweet, witty and clever, polite and poised, but damn it, the author is unleashing the wrath. Who was the clever individual to appoint role models, mentors, or life teachers?  And, PLEASE can that person tell me that they got PAID some type of monetary value. And who, by the way, does the picking? I mean I understand that The Divine comes into play now and again in making these choices.  But, can the person whose being picked has some say.  What if the timing is OFF.. What about the self esteem of the pickee?  

Lets take relationships for example. What's with this whole moment of the Younger Guy & Older Woman?  Who said that was okay?  Why, because Ashton and Demi made it look glamorous.  The entire world saw how that ended up.  He came out on top while she was used like a convenient hole for his amusement.  And after he was done with her because she started to get old he cheated on her and left her brokenhearted.  Everyone knows that the guy in this equation has been trained and molded into an ideal man from an established woman.  So of course he wins. The woman loses her respect and self esteem. And that what Mr. Kutcher did, he humiliated a nice person all because he was done using her. And what did this woman get out in exchange - pure humiliation.  

Why!?  Why is it that the woman must suffer the blow?  Humiliated by the very person that she once trusted and open her heart to.  And not only her heart but her mind too.   I mean, lets be honest.  No woman of a certain age would take a young man serious in any situation. If you're not her son, why would she.  They have a lot to learn and experience in life.  And those experiences should be done with other people of the same age.  If the experience these young boys want to experience is sexual than hire an escort to satisfy your needs.  

But, thanks to the most famous relationship known to date (Ashton & Demi) women are caught in a double edge sword.

(Humiliation of one person by another (the humiliator) is often used as a way of asserting power over them, and is a common form of oppression, bullying or abuse)

The woman is either a Trophy or Rite of Passage.  If you're pretty enough.

A rite of passage is a ritual event that marks a person's progress from one status to another. Rites of passage are often ceremonies surrounding events such as other milestones within puberty, coming of age, marriage and death. Initiation ceremonies such as baptism,confirmation and Bar or Bat Mitzvah.

But for the women or girls who are not pretty enough are just used up.  When the guys are done with them they are left humiliated.  These women are not an Angelina Jolie, that men will do anything for. They are just regular females who are used, played with, humiliated and then rejected. 

Humiliated & Rejected 

(sorry ladies but this is your fate if you do not meet the requirements)

Delicious Sweets

Mmm, please let me kiss your neck, the small spot of your shoulder, then the top part of your chest, as my lips tenderly kiss down the middle.  Mmm, I'm so turned on by the way you are breathing  with excitement, as you hope I continue to kiss down to your belly, kissing each side, making my way underneath your belly button.  Your hands want to touch me, direct me to your prize, but don't worry I'm there.  Taste so good, so strong.   My lips and tongue has their way, making you breathe hard, moan hard, your hands want to touch me and direct me to go faster.  I do as you ask, but tell you that I want to finish you off as you finish me off.   I climb on top of you all wet and sweet, as I begin to rock like a small wave in the ocean.   Feeling your strength against mine, you take your hands and direct my motion to please your desire.   Over and over and over as you rise up to my body pulling my hair back, rocking my body back and forth faster and faster.   Both our bodies breathing, panting so hard with pleasure.   As you squeeze and pull my body in every direction that you please.   Finding that pleasure that you need.   You pull me to my back, grabbing my legs pulling and moving them as you take pleasure by my moans.   You lay your body on top of mind, grinding your motion harder against mine.   I go silent, trying not to gasp so loudly.  But, you not pleased until you hear it.  I give in to you and let you hear.  You pull me back on top, raise your body to meet mine, rock me back and forth until your wave of ocean has enter mind.   Climax has been reached.   Mmm, (big smile) all is calm and my desire is satisfied.  I kiss both your cheeks lay down and fall asleep.   Thank you.   

You are very sweet to appease my desire to taste your sweets.  Later.

Is It Hunger or Is It Desire?

A sense of longing for a person, place, or thing.  Hoping for an outcome that pleases you.  A fire that is set in motion expressing your cravings for enjoyment through thought or action. Is this craving to obtained a goal or is it desire?  The human mind is an amazing organ.  Always in motion, processing millions of thoughts that comes in and out of your head in seconds.  The many different themes that arises is endless.  You can go from fear, to love, to business, to education, to worship, to family, to friends, and children in and out, back around again and again.  The many interchanging facet of your thoughts races continuously in your head.  But, when a memory of desire, a sweet desire, that grabs a hold of your thought, mind, heart and soul; can linger for hours.  Like a great Sunday afternoon with a lover that ignites your senses, a burn with such hunger.  A hunger that lingers for days for a particular treat.  A hunger that warms your blood coursing ever so strongly through your body.  Can't do anything to deter your mind from such a desire that has a hold on you for a moment.  You toss and turn, sit and squirm, rub your hands up and down your body, your neck, your head, down to your legs as you draw them near to your chest wishing for the hold to tire.  And just as you reach your climax, you let out a breathe, a deep breathe of relief.  But the residual thought will always linger to conquer you once again at a later time. 

Now, I don't know if I just made myself hungry or horny? Until we meet again. Might be soon ;)

NinaRavenSimone

Unbelievable!!! Really!!! Come On America Get it Together

Unbelievable!!!  Okay, can someone explain to me what's the deal with this economy.  I know many generations before have seen and dealt with the same issues.  But, what is Sooo confusing to me is, how we as nation have not found the solution.  I mean really people, haven't we learn from our past. Its not that difficult cut down on the spending on the idiotic military toys and put back to our people who are slaving their behinds away to keep this world running.  Oh, Oh, Oh, how about the people we have put in the government to represent us.  Really!!! C'mon guys!!  How about you guys take a pay cut and eat like the rest of us.  Take 2 years of living like us minimum wagers and see how it feels to make ends meat, pay a mortgage, feed your kids, clothed them, send them to school, buy their school supplies, oh yeah, put gas in your car, clothed yourself, feed yourself all on minimum wage.  Then tell us Americans after 2 years is up I'm sorry but we have to raise your taxes again to keep this world running.  Have you pompous a**holes would commit suicide after 3 months.  Its not fun being Poor.  Its not fun trying to make a living while you guys continue to screw it up in office.  

Another mess I can't understand, jobless educated people.  Uh, how stupid is that?! You complain the unemployment rate is too high but won't hire people.  But, you want this nation, this country to thrive.   Really Fools!!!  What these businesses and companies need to do is hire the unemployed so the economy can thrive even further.  Instead of bitchin' and complain' about paying the unemployed.  Also, how about you put these perfectly healthy people that are living off of welfare smoking pot, buying the latest phones, and their ghetto fabulous clothing to WORK!!  If anything that is horrible that you have perfectly able individuals that can go to work.  Welfare should be awarded to family that are really in a bad way.  Each state has to do better on making their decisions.  I've been to a welfare office to get food stamps for my father because he was elderly and could not work for himself.  They almost did not approve this man for he received retirement.  I had to bring in my dementia elderly dad to show proof that he needed help.  And as I was helping my dad all I saw were kids in their 20s claiming welfare.  Really!!!!

Come on America Get Your Shit Together!!!!  Before there is NOTHING left for anyone to live in.